Wasn't it only yesterday it was summer? Wow, the last year passed in a blur. Summer came again suddenly, early, hot. Overnight, it seems, everyone was back in their yards working up a sweat. We closed our windows to the weather again, succumbing to the temptation of humidity-free air.
It's bittersweet for me. Last summer I was lighter, physically. Clothes I liked fit well. Last summer, I biked to the ballpark and felt confident in front of people. Thanks to a lethargic winter, I've gained part of the weight back that I was so proud to lose. Not all, but enough to be unhappy with myself.
That's not the real loss, though. If I'm not careful, I can see I will lose this summer in looking back at the last one.
It's a humbling lesson, just when I thought (proudly) I had made such strides in humility. Back to the beginning, to learn the same lessons, the lessons of taking up the cross, of admitting I've failed, of baby steps and turning my thoughts toward Jesus. Of laughing at myself and carrying on, trusting that this, this, this is the day that the Lord has made.
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